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Valentne Pot Luck Lunch

Open to any and all who care to come who know me.

It's pot luck so please bring some yummies with you.

Date: Feburary 21st, 2009
Location: 4211 Pebblebrook Drive - Bloomington, MN 55437
Arrival Time: 12pm
Departure Time: 5pm
Foods: Potluck
Entertainement: Undecided

GUESTS
1. Allie
2. Ian
3. Gretchen
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Horrible Weekend

Okay, I got something in the mail from Unemployment. Apparently SA is fighting my claim for unemployment now. I'm not gonna get into what their complaints are but still, they should have done this ahead of time instead of letting me collect all this money. If I lose this case, I have to pay back all this money that I don't have. I'll be in so much debt. I have 2 cards to pay off PLUS my phone bill. I'm so scared.

Breaking Up is Hard to Do

Well, apparently one of my 'friends' is mad at me about something. I kinda understand what the reason is but I kinda don't.

As far as I understand, this person is mad becuse I first said I was going to cancel the pot luck for Valentine's then I chanced my mind and moved it to my new board. This person got pissed and now doesn't accept my text messages, PMs to LJ, and have even stopped being my friend on another site.

The other reason is because I was grumbling about not having many friends and this was before my friend Allie started to take me to Chatterbox. Now this person is mad because I was complaining before. Well, I told this person I don't have many friends in the Lolita community and that was what I was mostly grumbling about. That I don't get calls or text messages from anyone except people OUTSIDE the Lolita's. I know a lot of them hang out aside from the meetup's and that makes me feel kinda left out because when I do go to the meet up's, I have no idea what half of them are talking about so that's why I keep to myself.

I'm very upset and I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know how else to apologize to this person. Honestly, I think the reasons are a bit petty but I understand how this person feels. There isn't anything I can do to change that so it seems that I have no friends left with the Lolita's. I'm tolerated at the most. I absolutely have no idea what else there is I can do.

Should I keep going to the meetup's?
Should I keep saying sorry over and over to this person when I'm doing the one thing this person suggested, get friends?
Should I just give it all up and stop bothering?
Help me. I'm lost in a spiral and I'm reaching up but there's no one to grab my hand.

Wild Nights at Chatterbox

Ok, so on wednesday I went to CB with Allie and the other's and we were getting a bit TOO familiar with each other. I don't know how started it but I think it was Eric. For some reason, guys and gals were attacking each other's necks. It's like it was vampire night or something. Oh my god it was fun. I got my turn as well plus I got a lovely back rub by Matt.

The Loli's need to come and hang out with us. It's fun. Every Weds & Sun at Chatterbox in St. Paul. Karaoke night is fun. I hope some of you show up.

Chatterbox Night!!

For anyone who cares, every Wednesday and Sunday is Chatterbox night for myself and my friends.

Tonight was wild and fun. I had so much fun taking pictures and videos tonight of people. I wish some of the Lolita's would have been there but I had fun with everyone.

My ribs are hurting and I have a bruise on my side. Here's the story.
I wore my JSK (jumperskirt) from ITS (In the Starlight) and I wanted to wear my corset from Heather with it. So Allie and Amanda came in and got me in it. Once at Chatterbox, it started to untie in the back so I asked Eric, who's a Festie (Ren Fest), to tie it and he did, but he also tightened it a bit. After about a half hour, I started to feel extreme pain and I had a hard time breathing. Allie saw and asked Eric if he could loosen it up and he did. So now I have very sore sides and a bruise. It'll be a week or so until I wear it again.

Other than that, I had fun. I was molested by Ross and I didn't feel the least bit violated lol.

Movie Night!!

So I went to Kevin's last night with Allie, Amanda, and Ian. We watched Hook and Titan A.E. and ate nummy food. We had a blast. We wrote on Amanda's jeans, talked about random stuff, and just had a good old time. It's great to have friends who actually call me to ask me if I wanna do something or just to talk. I think last night was mostly for Allie as she had to bury her Aunt yesterday. I think it helped her a lot to have friends around and to just goof off and have fun. We're probably going to Chatterbox tomorrow night so I hope some of you come down to have fun with us and get to meet my friends. They may not be Loli's, but they're a wild bunch.

I Am (Poem)

The true title or author of this poem is unknown but it's beautiful and really does reflect on how a lot, but not all, homosexuals, Bisexuals, Transgenders, Lesbians, and Transvestites feel.

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I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Meta Lucky Pack!! - PICTURES ADDED

OMG!! I loved pretty much everything I got!!
I got these cute pink socks!
A ruffle butt bloomers!
A white ruffly petti that didn't fit me, but Ava's already got dibbs on it.
And a blue alice-like headbow which will probably go up on EGL sales tonight or tomorrow.

Other than that.......................SQUEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll post pictures soon. So far only Ava and Jane have gotten to see me in my new dress!!! It's prettyful!!!!!!

*sighs dreamily* When's the next lucky pack?

EDIT
Here are the pictures!!!!!!!!
Dress -
http://i446.photobucket.com/albums/qq185/SuzuranHime/S7302706.jpg
Bloomers - http://i446.photobucket.com/albums/qq185/SuzuranHime/S7302696.jpg
Socks - http://i446.photobucket.com/albums/qq185/SuzuranHime/S7302695.jpg
Headdress (for sale) - http://i446.photobucket.com/albums/qq185/SuzuranHime/S7302704.jpg

A New Look

So I've been trying to improve on my Gyaru look so I decided to do one that's very similar to Lolita but not. . . HimeGyaru!

So first is this, my attempt to curl my hair. I failed at an epic level - http://i446.photobucket.com/albums/qq185/SuzuranHime/S7302600.jpg

Then here is my Hime-Casual look - http://i446.photobucket.com/albums/qq185/SuzuranHime/S7302632.jpg

Can't see the shoes? They're adorable. $10.00 at DEB's - http://i446.photobucket.com/albums/qq185/SuzuranHime/S7302618.jpg

Fun at Chatterbox

OMG I had so much fun! I watched everyone sing while Patricia and I watched. Someone sang 'I Bought it on eBay' and the 'Star Wars Song' (American Pie version) by Weird Al. And this guy and two girls killed 'A Whole New World', but it was fun. I took some pictures that I'll upload tomorrow.

I'm off to bed. Night lovies.